frustrations, fixes and *pics*

So my weekend started out like crap. I went to plug in my cell this morning and it wouldn’t charge. I’ve been charging it with my laptop because my stupid wall charger decided to stop working a while ago. So I plugged it in like I do every time it is about to die and nothing. *glares at the USB cord hoping it will burst into flame* My phone was almost dead, it had 3% battery left. Fantastic… riiight.

So I grab the cable from the box my phone came in, tried that… nothing. So I try all 3 of my USB ports. Nothing *fumes* My cell then says that my computer no longer supports the device and I needed new drivers. So I grab the Blackberry CD from the box figuring there would be something on it that would help. Guess what…. the damn CD won’t run. I tried another CD and that worked fine but the Blackberry CD wouldn’t read. WTF?! It isn’t scratched. I’ve never even used it before.

So I email Chris and tell him that if he was planning on calling me tonight to not even bother because my phone would be dead until I had a chance to get out and buy a charger. I didn’t have any plans of leaving the house today, let alone to spend money on a charger with 2 birthdays and Christmas right around the corner. I was livid. Because seriously… this deployment has been nothing but one bad thing after another, one thing breaking after another.

So I decided to put my anger to work so I started cleaning the house again. Nicholai and I watched Wall-E and then I started cleaning Nicholai’s bathroom, his room, my bedroom, vacuum the floor, play with Nicholai, dance with Nicholai… by the time I was done all of that I wasn’t as pissed about my phone. Nicholai’s smile is just so adorable that it’s hard to do anything but smile right back and him. And then I get an email from Chris and he says that he remembers his Pre charger fitting my charger so I try it…. and it works! *happy dance*

And then he says that Sprint still needs to be paid and it was due at the beginning of the month. Damn! No matter how hard I try to stay up on everything it just seems impossible to do all by myself. Between Nicholai, trying to clean the house and do all the laundry, cook, take care of Aurora, take care of the cars, pay all the bills, keep in contact with family, plan for this long vacation…. I’m just not enough. I need help. And I know exactly where my help is…. thousands of miles away defending our country…. so I need to keep better track of everything I guess. I just feel like I never get a chance to breathe. I don’t even get to sleep through the night because if Nicholai gets up I always have to be the one to get him. Don’t get me wrong I love that little boy with all that I am but it just adds to the stress because I can’t fully recover from 1 day because I don’t get to sleep. Thankfully Nicholai only woke up once around 3am and slept until 7am but still. I shouldn’t complain I know. I married into the Army, I knew what it was going to be like and I love Chris with all my heart and will be with him forever so I just have to suck it up and deal with this seperation right now. I just hate that I let things slip through the cracks. Makes me feel like I’m doing a bad job while Chris is away.

*sigh*

But ok… enough of this… on to those pictures I was talking about in the last entry.

at the ranch

Nicholai and the bear… this was right after I finished feeding him

helping mommy carve the pumpkin

getting ready for our wagon ride around the farm

Nicholai picking out which pumpkin he wanted

mommy and baby pirate

Out with the mommy group… isn’t he just precious?! He looks so grown up in this picture