fluffy white flakes…

Yup… it is snowing just like that outside right now. I have been slacking on the writing but I have been busy. Rob is home for r&r and it has been interesting to say the least. It has been a bit awkward but we have been ok so… I don’t know… its nice to see that he is ok.

Work has been stressing me out like usual. I started babysitting though so that should help my money situation and help add to me being able to save… though my phone is about to get shut off again. Wonderful. I was worried yesterday since I haven’t been there in months because they baby forgot me and cried when he saw me but we started playing and having a good time and by the end of my 4 hours he was running to me so I could pick him up. His older brother who when I babysat for them over the summer could care less if I was there or not was now all about me. He kept asking me to pick him up and carry him and he kept lifting up my shirt so he could look at my stomach… haha silly little boy. Oh… I babysat for Ashley on Tuesday. She dropped Evan off around 7pm. OMG I love that little boy… he is so adorable!

me feeding the baby

Evan and my build-a-bear Brian

Yeah… so like I said… Evan is adorable. I hope that I get to watch him again… short of being a bit cranky for the first hour he was good. I will have to get some pics of the other two little ones that I watch. I watch Nashir and Bryshawn every Mon/Wed/Thurs from whenever I get off work til about 10pm and sometimes on Tues same times. Their mum is also going to talk to their daycare manager and see if she can get me a job there in the morning because apparently they are looking for people and they open at 6:30am so that fits in great with my schedule. I need jobs and hours and money… I haven’t heard anything about that yet but hopefully soon.

Chris keeps telling me not to worry about money but I always do. I never have any money… it seems like no matter how much I try to save it does me no good… I am always in debt, always living from paycheck to paycheck and I HATE doing that. I never have money for anything that I want. I mean… it seems to be different for Chris because he can go out and buy the things that he wants, but me… I have to save for months just to buy a pair of jeans. Money is a big thing for me and I want to have money saved before I move. I don’t want to move with nothing, it would drive me crazy and freak me out. Ugh.. I hate how everything comes down to money but that is just the world that we live in I guess.

Guess I should end this here… I think its time for a run on the treadmill.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life