feeling so much better about everything

I finally found some time to get some meditation in. I did a little spell along with it and its amazing how much better I feel. Nothing else has come of the situation. She has still not apologized to me but there is nothing I can do to make her. I have gotten upset, angry, hurt and frustrated about it. I have written about it and gotten it out of my system. I am still waiting for her to apologize first before I start talking and opening up to her again. And there are going to be things that have to be talked about… but I’m not upset about it. She is who she is and I have no right to change that, all I have the right to expect is respect for myself and who I am as a wife and as a mommy-to-be.

I still haven’t gotten around to posting the new ultrasound pics… but I will get there. The appt. went great. The OB said that the heartrate was great and I was able to see the baby moving around, legs kicking, hands holding onto the cord… the tech even felt the baby kick the ultrasound want… I didn’t   so I am trying to wait patiently for the baby to kick hard enough for me to feel. The next appt. is April 9th. Tomorrow is the breastfeeding class. May is our tour since we were late to the last one. And I’m waiting for conformation on the birthing classes.

We also have to start packing up. We have a little less then 2 months until we move. We saw the place on Saturday and we both fell in love with it. I can’t wait to live there. Its so much bigger then where we are now and the rooms are huge, there is a lot more storage. Though we did lose the walkin closet. We are just going to have to slim down as much as we can in the move process. And by the time we move I will have 2 more weeks of work and then I will be in my 3rd trimester. So time is going by… slowly…. but its going.

Guess that is a pretty good update… pics to come eventually haha

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life