everyone but me should be happy *edit*

So Chris told me this morning that he is giving me 2 weeks to move out. I can’t believe this is happening. I hate my house… I hate living with my parents. I don’t want to go back there… to all the stress and all the noise. That house is a mess… and I am never alone… there is always someone home. I am so upset and so angry… I hate him so much. He told me that I was always going to be able to stay here… he told me that he would let me stay… everything that he has ever told me is a lie. I am so sick of being lied to.

All the peaceful days alone at home… gone. The beautiful house that I helped doecorate… gone. A world away from my parents… gone. Everything is gone. And its like no one even cares about me or how I feel or what I want or need.

Just goes to show that I was right all along… I am worthless and nothing and he never really cared about me. I hate him… he is such an asshole towards me. Like I was never important, like we were never engaged.

Part of me wants to leave… to never talk to him again and see if he comes to talk to me, but the other part of me wants desparetly to hold on to him and let him know how much I love him. Guess I am no better then Erica… no better then Amy. I am nothing…

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3 cuts this morning.

~**EDIT**~

I wish I had some other option, but I don’t have the money to move in anywhere else. And none of my friends have places of their own. Its my parents or the street. He is leaving me no options…