deployment here we come

 
Well we are back from block leave. I can’t believe how fast it went. It was so much fun…. we took Nicholai to the Philadelphia Zoo, to Adventure Aquarium, to meet some of my friends… he warmed up to my mum… he even reached for her when she held out her arms a couple times. It was really nice to be with my family. Chris and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary. We went to the Olive Garden, which was where we had our first date, and had a really nice time. I wish that we could have spent more time together, he played the 360 a lot but I have a feeling that it was just his way of dealing with the deployment so I didn’t really say much.

I can’t believe that it won’t be long before he deploys. We have been so lucky for so long and yet here we are… a deployment breathing right down our necks. I’m still numb to it all… I still can’t believe that he will be in Iraq… I still can’t believe I won’t see him for months on end…. it’s all so weird to think about. And still I don’t feel upset, I’m not sad really, I’m not anything. Numb.

I keep wondering how Nicholai will handle it all. He didn’t handle Cali very well and I’m worried how he will handle Chris being gone this time. He did so well with Jersey… he slept through the night almost every night… he took his naps like normal. He is such a little trooper. And he will be turning 1 soon. How did that happen?!

I have so much to keep my busy after Chris deploys. I don’t have much time to plan Nicholai’s birthday party. I haven’t even sent out invitations… ugh! That will keep me busy the first month. I’ve been trying to come up with my goals to work on while he is gone…. so far I have the gym and losing my last 15 baby pounds, reading atleast 200 books but hopefully 250…. and then I kinda come up blank. I was thinking about doing the 1000 cranes wish. Look up Sadako Sasaki online if you want to know the whole story but she was a little girl that developed luekemia after the bombing in Japan. If you fold 1000 paper cranes your wish can come true and Sadako tried to fold 1000 before she died but she couldn’t. There is a Peace Monument up in her honor and I thought of folding 1000 cranes for it. I’m hoping they do a project soon so I can send mine off if I get it done.

Hmmm…. I need to find some more goals to work toward.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life