August 29, 2006

crying out of hurt and anger

Today started out so well. Chris and I had a good morning… but of course when I had some time to myself the tears came, but atleast I could take a shower this morning and not cry. That is the first time in a while.

I cried for a while… thinking about Chris… he wrote me a comment on a blog I wrote on myself. I keep trying to hold on to these tiny glimmers of hope. I know that you all think I am crazy for wanting to be with Chris still, but I love him and I am going to stand by him no matter what. If you still think I am wrong that is fine… you are all entitled to your opinions and I am happy to hear them.

Well that is the hurt part… now for the anger…

I know that you all remember Geoff and how he is harassing me on myspace. Well today he changed all my passwords… including the one for OD. I was hysterical…. I thought that I lost this place… the only place that is keeping me going right now. I tried and tried, but OD helped me out thank Goddess and I found out what he changed the password to. I changed it again and think that I am going to keep changing it everyday.

I just can’t believe that he would do something like that. He already knows how much I am suffering with everything… I don’t know why he is trying to make my life more of a hell then it already is. I hate him… I hate him… I HATE HIM!!!!!!

lkjdlkjafh;kalfbieoiawjn mother fucking, dog humping, ass fucked shithead lkjdflkajdfiwnlkjvoi

GRRRRRRR

I am so happy that I have OD back… I was afraid that I lost you all forever and I can’t take anymore loss right now.

Shazar

August 30, 2006

You could just put a new password, so he won’t have any access. That’s sucks though – what a dick thing to do. Cut his brake lines. Or at least loosen the bolt on his oil pan. 😀 You’re not crazy – headstrong, stubborn, willful – but not crazy. And endearing. And brave. Compassionate. Daring. You stay standing even if it hurts. You are Amazing. The world needs more Women like You. 🙂

i got id

yeah, what she said.

You have so much love to give and it’s all wasted. What a shame. Hope that you wake up soon and start living…..[jerry]

Grim_Joker

August 31, 2006

that was quite possibly the strangest thing i have ever seen typed and actually tried to read. But like i said before, i dig graves for free. Anywho, good to see your doing somewhat better, And trust me when i say i know that feeling. I’ve been through it before. but it’s past, and its mine to dwell on, which i dont recomend doing.Take Care

honestly, stay away from him and dont talk to him bc its gonna be so hard to get over him by seeing him and/or talking to him, etc. Just cut him out of your life. Its best for you.