*cries*

Chris is on his way home from work right now… he said that he wanted to talk. I know that it doesn’t mean anything different… I know that nothing is going to chagce, but I still can’t help but hope that he is coming to save me.

Which is stupid because I know that he’s not.

I just love him… and need him… and want to be with him… but none of that matters. Everything is all fucked up and it is all because of me and my hasty decision to leave him and give up on everything that we had.

I will be forever sorry for that… forever