and we have ome back to this again

 
Well the MIL came down this weekend. I thought that is went fine while she as here but apparently she had issues with the weekend and with me.
She came down Thursday night. Hubby had a night jump so he didn’t get home til really late and I stayed up way past my normal bed time to talk to her. I finally went to bed, hubby got home, fell asleep. slept like shit since his mom had the tv on kinda loud all night and between the sound, her laughing, the light and everything I kept waking up all night long. Chris and I went to work on Friday but we both got off early. I had to run errands and Chris stayed home with his mom. We had dinner, Chris cooked, and then left to get ready for the show he and his band had that night. I drove her to the bar where they were playing and on the way we somehow ended up in a conversation about Wicca. I’m not getting into that at this point… I will come back to it.

People were coming up and talking to me, I was trying to get inside and find Chris and figure out what all was going on so I didn’t get the chance to get Candice’s attention and introduce the MIL to her. MIL got mad about that. And she got mad that I didn’t talk to her enough during the show. I was talking to everyone, we were all hanging out and its not like she is shy, she was talking to everyone…. so what the hell did she need my help for? We got home early and went to bed. I woke up a couple times from the tv….. whatever.

Saturday I had to babysit and Chris ended up getting called into work. Neither of which we had any control over. I set up my babysitting job before I knew about her coming and Chris had no control about getting called into work but apparently she got bored and started cleaning up around the house… and apparently I didn’t thank her for that, or the coffee pot that she bought for herself that she left with us… and whatever else she thought that I should say thank you for that I didn’t. When Chris and I got home she wasn’t here… but when she got back we talked about what and where we were going for dinner and decided. She wanted to take us out. Ok. Great. Chris fixed her computer and then we headed out for dinner. We talked and I thought things were fine…. when we got home my sister wanted to play video games online. The weekend is really the only time we have because of work and our early bed time so Chris and I played for a little while, she was sitting on the couch and then got up and layed down in our bed. I said nothing about that even though having other people sleep in our bed freaks me out… its a pet peeve of mine, but I let it go. She never said that she was tired or said that she wanted to go to bed so we played for a while and then we got ready for bed.

Sunday she was leaving and decided that she wasn’t going to the zoo with us so she stayed to pack and get ready and we left to go to the zoo. She left a note on the fridge and it sounded like everything was fine…. until tonight.

She called Chris but he was at work so when he called back she flipped on him. Complaining about how we were rude, how we ignored her all weekend, how weren’t grateful for everything that she did, how we didn’t say thank you for all the things that she did, how she doesn’t approve of the way that we plan on raising the baby. Then she said that I was rude, spoiled and a bitch. My favs of a while now know how not spoiled I am…. what the fuck ever. And I wasn’t a bitch to her! Well Chris flipped out when she called me a bitch, screamed at her and told her she had better take that back. I’m happy that he stood up for me, that doesn’t happen to me usually. People talk trash about me and no one stands up for me so I’m glad he did, but I want nothing to do with her unless she apologizes to me for the shit she talked behind my back. Chris won’t go for that, but I’m pissed and she had no right to flip like that. I don’t care what is going on with her marriage, that is no right for her to take it out on me.

And back to the religion thing…..

I don’t remember how we ended up in the conversation. It was fine in the beginning and then she started talking about the baby. I want to bring the baby up with a lot of Wiccan aspects and Chris wants to have some aspects of Christianity in there. I’m fine with that. Would I like to bring the baby up 100% Wiccan? Yes. Join a coven, have circles and meditate as a family… I think it would be a great experience. Do I sometimes wish that Chris was Wiccan? Yes, but I am ok with him being what he is. I love him for who he is and I accept him for who he is. I will have to deal with the agreement that we had, but I would love to raise them Wiccan. *sigh*

At some point during the religion conversation the MIL told me that she was sorry and sad for me because I’m not going to heaven. I told her that I don’t believe in heaven so it doesn’t really make a difference to me. Ugh this is so damn frustrating. I am tired of the religion thing coming up. I am what I am. Chris and I will raise our kids the way we see fit and if our children decide to follow Wicca and she looks down on them she will never see them again. And if they decide to follow Christianity… it will be wierd for me and hard for me, but I have been following Wicca on my own for so long… I will deal. I always deal.

Fuck it…. I’m going to bed.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life