and the sun finds another day

Not really much to talk about…. I didn’t go to work last night. Chris and I cuddled on the couch and talked for a little while instead. We got into a little fight in the afternoon, but we talked about and worked everything out. He told me that he really wants to make this work, and he knows that there will be fights along the way, but we will always work them out and everything will be ok.

Sounds to me like we are doing a lot better. Although I still think that he has that broken feeling, underneath all the smiles and the play fighting I can still feel it, but he is happier all around… I can tell. So that makes me feel a lot better about where we are going.

Money is reallly tight right now… with vacay coming up in about 2 weeks and me still needing to make my car payment for July plus rent, electric, cable, water and gas… we are far down the debt hole. Chris had lent money out to some people so I am going to say something about him collecting it before we vacay… since we really need the money back now. I guess I should go to work tonight… I just hate going there cause C is there.

I know that Chris is always going to want to be friends with her, but last time she pissed me off more then usual. Apparently Chris said something to her about me being uncomfortable with him and her. So when she got up on stage and saw me she came over and asked if Chris and I were engaged. I said that we used to be but with everything that happened we are moving slow so we are not engaged now. So then she looks at me and says, " So why are you so upset then?"

Um…. hmmm…. let me think. My bf who told me not too long ago that he wasn’t in love with me, but had this "feeling" about her is going back to the couch dance room with the girl where I can’t see him or hear what they are saying or know what is going on. All with this bitchy girl who I don’t trust. But no… that is no reason to be upset. I so just wanted to jump over the bar and smash the glasses into her face. But I just turned my head and stopped talking to her and she went away.

Unfortunetly if we don’t go up there then I make no money and I don’t get to see J or Vic… so I guess that means I am going tonight.

Other things…. I feel alot better since the nice dr gave me a nice perscription and I am going to call the office to see if my results are in yet about the tests.

I guess that is all for now… my mind is void of other things to write about

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I guess I should start the day.