and so it begins

Well Thanksgiving is over. Chris and I had a pretty great time. We went to his uncle’s house, whom I had never met before, and short of an awkward kiss situation with his father I had a good time. His uncle is awesome and conversation came easily. I had fun. Chris’s uncle told me that I had big boobs….. strange.

After we went back to my parents for dinner. It was good and we had fun. I decided to crash early since I wanted to go shopping together.

Today I went to 2 malls. I went to the Echelon mall and got some stuff for me and Chris and some stuff for my brother’s birthday which is Sunday. I’m worried that David won’t like what we got him…. but I guess I will have to wait and see. We visited with Chris’s mom and step-dad for a little while and then ran to AC Moore and Depford mall. We managed to get my father done, my one sister done, and my brother started. The rest we are going to finish back in NC, but we got a pretty good start and we know what we are getting for everyone except my grammommy and my other sister so I think its going well. I’m not looking forward to Christmas Eve since it seems that Chris is going to be at his parents again this year so I will have Christmas Eve dinner alone and will decorate the tree alone but he is deploying and I know that his mother is going to want to see him and spend time with him so I am just going to keep my mouth shut about it and deal with it.

*sigh*

Chris also splurged and bought a PS3 on ebay today. We got a good deal though…. a backwards compatible one for only $380 as opposed to the $600 that they used to be. It will give me one more thing to do while he is deployed I guess. Now I can get Little Big World and play that. I can’t believe that we only have 6-8 weekends left before he deploys… its so soon…. but I’m trying hard not to get upset about it and look at the positive side of everything. Its hard but I’m doing my best.

I have some ideas about what to get Chris for Christmas. I don’t know how much money I am going to have to spend but I am trying my best to save up. I know that financially we will be ok once he is deployed and I will do my best to get us out of debt.

I hope to have all the shopping done by the 3rd week of December so I can wrap it all before Chris and I go back to Jersey for Christmas.

This Christmas may turn out to be very interesting. I have heard that my ex Ferguson is going to "crash" Christmas and try to show Chris up by buying me a lot of presents and showing up at my parents house with them. I don’t know if he is going to do it or not but my sister seems to think that Ferguson is holding out hope that he and I will get back together. Apparently the relationship that he is in right now isn’t working out for him or so he told my sister. I don’t really care… he can hope all he wants but it isn’t going to get him anywhere. So I guess I’m just going to have to wait and see what happens. Heh… wouldn’t that be interesting if he showed up Christmas Eve and Chris wasn’t there… hmmmm…. maybe that would be better? Ugh the drama never ceases to end.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. We are going to visit Ashley and Evan as well as Chris’s grandmother. Apparently she isn’t doing all that well, but then again she is about to turn 93. I’m worried that she is going to pass away while Chris is deployed and I know that if he couldn’t get home for her funeral that he would be really upset…. he will be upset enough that she passed away. I just worry about it. I don’t want anything to happen to her because she is such a sweet woman but I know that she won’t live forever. I just know how much Chris loves her and I don’t want to see him upset.

But I have no control over that… I can only help him cope.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life