and in just one month

So I just had grilled cheese, tomato soup and mixed berry actuvia yogurt for lunch! PERFECT lunch for a cold rainy Thursday. The only thing that could make this more perfect would be hubby here to snuggle with. *sigh* But we are almost there.
 
I can’t believe that it’s Thursday already…. Thursday. The first week of November is almost over and I have about 2 weeks left to clean the whole house, eat all the food that will go bad, make a packing list and pack, mail hubby’s Christmas care package (which means I have to get everything together very soon), mail Molly’s baby package (her due date is December 8th), get Aurora to the vet, put our mail on hold, write and send out pictures to some family…. and I’m sure there is more that I have to do. *starts shaking and explodes* I have NO idea how I’m going to get all this done in 2 weeks. BUT… on the plus side of this. These next 2 weeks will fly by. I started cleaning today. But this place needs a deep clean because once we get from Jersey we won’t have a lot of time to unpack and wash clothes, wash hubby’s clothes and get ready for his homecoming so this place needs to be deep cleaned. Which means take everything out of everywhere and wipe down everything and put it all back. I have to go through my clothes and get rid of things that I won’t wear, I have to go through storage bins and get rid of things that we won’t use, I have to move the bed and vacuum under it, get down on my hands and knees to wash the floors…. and with just 2 weeks and 3 weekends left…. it’s going to be tight. Especially if Nicholai is still being clingy, he has been getting better and today he is almost himself but he still screams and whines A LOT! And I don’t have time for that nor is that ok. He can’t scream just because he doesn’t get his way, he can’t scream to get my attention. I am not going to allow my son to act that way. I started implementing time outs. Yes he is too young to fully understand but he gets that if I’m washing dishes and he comes into the kitchen screaming if I tell him that he has to stop screaming and he keeps it up I WILL take him into the living room and sit him on the floor. And I will keep doing that until he comes into the kitchen nicely. And he does understand that.

I feel like a bad mommy sometimes doing that but in the long run it will make him a better child, a more mature child, and that is the important thing. Right? I’m so worried about doing right by him. Nicholai is my baby and at times I want to treat him like a baby, BUT he isn’t a baby anymore. He is a toddler. He will be 15 months on Thanksgiving, he needs to start learning boundaries, rules, patience and other big boy behavior… right? Being a mommy for the first time is tough. I want to be a good mommy, I want to raise a well-rounded child, but I always worry that I’m doing something wrong.

I need to start on these letters that I have to write so I need to get off OD lol.

And….. what is happening in just one month? Eclipse comes out on Blu-ray!!!!!!!!!! I CANNOT wait for it to be released! December 4th I will be buying it and I will be watching it! SQUEE!!!!!!!!