anam cara

So… life… yeah.

School is kicking my ass, but on the plus side it is helping the days fly by. Its Thursday already and for some reason I think that it should be Tuesday instead though I am not complaining at all. I am glad that September is almost half over. October is almost here…. Army Chris will be coming home again. I can’t wait for October. First Army Chris will be home and then I have all the rest of the month to plan for All Hallows Eve. And that will take up most of October. I have my Wicca group’s hat and broom decorating, the All Hallows Eve ritual (which is going to be hard to prepare and do since I will have class that night….. GRRRRR) and then October will be over and it will be November. Once November comes I will have midterms, days off from school and work, and then all of a sudden it will be December…. Christmas and things…. yeah time will fly.

School is going to be over in December… I have to apply to Rutgers and Rowan but for some reason I keep putting it off. I don’t know why… maybe I am just nervous. School is going pretty well so far. I had my first public speaking speech yesterday and after freaking out about it…. I just got up and got it over with. I had to bring in 3 things that represented me. So I brought the care bear for my work with children, a matchbox Corvette for my love of cars and an American flag to represent my biggest part of me, Rob. I got a 15 out of 15 and now I only have 3 speeches left! Thank god cause I hate public speaking.

After 9/11 and the speech yesterday I was really missing Rob like crazy. And then this morning after my shower I was getting ready for school and feeling kind of down and then I heard the im noise go off. I looked over and it was ROB! EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!  That was the highlight of my day! We got to talk for almost an hour…. it was great. We were laughing, smiling, joking, talking about politics, life the future…. it was perfect! *sigh* I really miss Rob so much. There are times that I wonder how he and I would be together, when we haven’t talked in a while… if we will really be able to make it all work, but then I talk to him and I remember how perfect we are together, how easy it is to talk to him, how he just gets me and who I am and how I think.

I am just hoping that when we get together that it will be the same. I mean getting to know someone through the internet is so different from actually living with them or spending time with them. I just hope that when we do finally get to be "together" that it will be just like over the internet or over the phone but with the added bonus of physical closeness and not just sexual, but intimate. Holding hands, kissing, laying on the couch together, hugging… all those things that I took for granted that you just get to do when you are with someone… all those things that I miss. I try not to be needy…. or clingy, but I have a feeling that when Rob comes home that will be exactly what I am and I hope that doesn’t drive him crazy.

Hmmm…. guess that is all that I have to write for now. I talked to Rob today…. PERFECT…. so now the only thing that is missing is talking to Army Chris, because he has proven himself time and time again as my best friend these past couple months. I don’t know what I would do without a friend like him…. he makes every day so much better and I can’t wait to hang out with him again come October. He is my savior that keeps me going until Rob comes home and I am so grateful to him everyday.

I consider myself the luckiest woman in the world… I have Rob, I have Army Chris, I have so many people who are there for me and help me along and way… I promise I do not take that for granted.