an entry for the girls with men in the military

10 Things Never To Say To Someone Who Has A Soldier Deployed. . .

1. Do you miss him?

2. I don’t know how you do it.

3. I know just how you feel.

4. Are you scared something may happen to him?

5. I would die if my husband left me for that long.

6. Has he had to kill anyone?

7. Aren’t you afraid of him now?

8. Aren’t you worried he’s going to cheat on you?

9. Are you excited he’s coming home?

10. Why couldn’t he get a REAL job?

You Know Your Soldier’s Deployed When.

1. You sleep with your cell phone on your pillow.

2. You use an entire bottle of his cologne so you can smell him around you.

3. You get nervous every time the phone rings or you hear a knock at the door.

4. The shoes he left in the middle of the floor are now oddly comforting.

5. The postal clerk knows you by name.

6. You buy beef jerky every time you go to the grocery store.

7.You check your email every 5 minutes including in the middle of the night.

8. You have enough priority boxes, packing tape and customs forms for his entire unit.

9.You have a ton of friends with deployed soldiers who you’ve never actually met because they’re all online.

10.You don’t just tie a yellow ribbon around a tree outside, you tie one around your heart.

I feel like I am so unaware of the world of the military. I don’t know much about the levels and all the details, but also I feel so connected to the war and the army now. Its odd… how one thing happens and changes the way that you look at everything. Its true what they say about the women who have their other half in the military, especially deployed… they are some of the strongest women in the world. There are days when I wake up in the morning and ask myself why I am doing this… why am I hurting so much? Why do I put myself through something like this… something stressful and painful and hard? But as soon as all those questions enter my mind the answer comes just as fast… because I love Rob more then anyone or anything in this world and I would do anything for him. I would walk through hell and back if I had to. I would anything that I could for my soldier and I hope that he knows that.

I guess it all comes down to that one simple fact that this is part of my life now… this is my destiny. Everyone says that Rob and I are meant to be. I got to talk to him on aim late Saturday night… and I was so happy to be talking to him that I was crying. It was nice to just be able to have a conversation with him, to get responses back. We didn’t talk about anything really serious. Just happy to finally be able to talk. I hope that within the next month I will get to hear his voice again. He told me that because of the extention that he might actually have a 15 month tour instead of 18 and I can only hope with all my heart that it turns out to be true! He also said that he put in for 2 weeks r&r for this August and he thinks there is a good chance that he will get that. If he gets it then he will be home for my 23rd birthday. I can’t imagine a better birthday present in the whole world then to see the love of my life for my birthday.

I go back to work today… it was snowing this morning, yes thats right, snow in April. UGH!!! So what happened to my spring, my sun? I wonder…

Heh… watching the news today… Bush still won’t accept the budget for the troops because it has a timeline to bring troops home attached to it! What the hell… The American populace doesn’t want us to be there… the Iraqi people do not want us there (well some of them) so why are we there? Bush is tearing families apart, and for what. We need to bring the troops home! Then again, this is what I signed up for. To be an army girlfriend this is the life that you have to expect and I know that this is just starting, but I have to realize that this is going to be my life until atleast 2010 when he is done active duty. I am proud of my soldier… I just want him home with me. *SIGH* Ok… ranting over.

There was a shooting at Virginia tech school… with the possibility of 22 dead. The whole world is falling apart around us… sometimes I feel that way, we all just have lost the compassion for others that we used to share. We are all people, all living together on this one small planet. Why do we have to kill each other?

Yeah… I am frustrated today.