the Mold

 should probably stop drinking and writing and go to sleep. 

trying not to slip back into my old ways.

it’s always so hard to trust this way.

and yet oddly enough i trust myself more when i am untrusting. 

when i I am unleaning. 

when I am unyielding

unwavering.

uncompromising. 

safe.

steady.

sound.

Should probably stop adding songs to the playlist

and try to get some rest. 

Goodbye Same Ol’ Road by Dredge.

Goonight deep thoughts and old regrets. 

" all you need is modest house in a modest town where modest people dwell…"

make a conscious effort to forget for moment

just exactly what You THINK it is you need. 

Then open your eyes and see how it has changed its face again.

Unleaning. 

Unyielding.

unwavering.

uncompromising. 

void of love. 

Please let me not see this here. 

Should probably put down the flask

and close down the youtube video list. 

Forget all the moments where I thougt we were so…

Tragic. 

Understand that at once we had it. 

accept that season gone,

and try not to go back to my old ways. 

My Love. I gave it all. 

And here I am giving it all again. 

Trying not give it all in. 

Afraid it is too late. 

Hoping for a better path..for a better end to begin. 

A better Love.

Unleaning. Unyielding. Unwavering. Uncompromising.

Filling all of my voids. 

… should probably go lay with her now

where I am safe from my thoughts. 

Where I am protected from my old ways.

Her belly my flask. 

her beating heart my playlist.

Unleaning. 

Unyielding.

unwavering.

uncompromising.