Never Think

please dont ever think

that in my home

 that in my arms

that between my thighs

you will find happiness,

for  I have nothing here for you.

nothing to give.

nothing to hand over

nor hand to hold

nor shoulder to lean on

nor enemy

nor friend

nor secret place

nor unkempt trend.

please do not be comfortable here,

as i do not know how to love,

and therefor you cannot love me,

do not stay here, head resting on my lap.

do not sleep there,

so quiet and undisturbed,

for there is no peace here

I am a rocking wave

on the furthest ship from you.

I will not dock, but will remain distant from you..

ever empty,

ever warm as the waves

ever cold as the creatures dwelling there.