miss me now

writing here because here is where i can say the things im not supposed to say. where i can yell but no one will hear me. Where I can scream and no one will see me. Where I can just breathe. wondering what club I will go to to drain my worries in tonight. Single but no quite. Got someone here but not really . No use in trying to turn someone into a person they are not. BUT I can still wish. still wish that one day I will find the perfect gurl. Still hope that I havent already found her and then somehow passed her up. Never really used this diary like an actual diary before but the release feel good at the moment.

Wondering is my current life is one that I created from the past. They say you can break heart not even knowing it was there to break and that you never know what tales Karma will tell whether the breaking was accidental or something misconstrued.

Have I been wreckless? Have I gone too fast without knowing it?

None of it would matter now in the slowest part of my life. The time of thinking.