05/16/2013

 i don’t cry

but today i cried twice.

once this morning… when i woke up angry with myself for being angry with and for questioning God over my life. 

Once again tonight, when i realized that for the second time I have lost my entire treatment.

I’d like to give up on a few things. 

on thoughts.

on feelings.

on writing. 

but i am an artist. how can i leave myself?

I want to leave myself here. I want to be gone.