wasted away again..

 Valentine’s Day. Easily one of my least favorite holidays. When I am alone I absolutely loathe it. When I am with someone I merely tolerate it. I understand it is nice to celebrate love but I honestly have always tried to make love something i celebrate everyday mostly because that is the way it should be…

I still remember the last time I was with someone for Valentine’s. it started with breakfast and when she got home from work I had a hot rose scented bath with fresh rose petals and bath salts for her. After that I have massage oils and warm stones for a relaxing massage and finally a delicious homemade (read as nothing from a box) Steak and Mashed potato dinner. Candles everywhere. At least a dozen roses (red and white)… I spent a crap ton of money and where did it get me? She left me a few months later with pretty much no explanation.

Am I bitter? Yes. Am I depressed? Yes. Do I hate this stupid holiday and all the stupid happy people? Absolutely. Does it mean I don’t want it? No. I completely want it. I want that again…

Oh well let’s hit the bottle and try to forget today exists…

Here is to love

~Sky~