Broken

Before I begin: I know that I am not the only person in the world that feels this way… and that makes me feel worse that I write what I do and then read it… I have never deleted an entry and always posted what i wrote…. And I know still that it feel so selfish to say…

I have felt extremely lonely as of late. The one bad part of my job is I get a lot of time secluded to sit and think… and typically it boils down to one thing…I am alone. I have one decent close friend and he is seriously about one day away from disappearing from my day to day. Especially if he ends up with this girl he has been working on. I really want it to work out for him. I want him to find that happiness but I know what happens from past examples. He will disappear completely. He has pretty much any way. He barely wants to hang out or do things out side of sit at the apartment. I yelled at him one day when he was whining about being alone pointing out he does nothing to seek out new relationships and here… I try and try and want to get out I just hate doing things alone so when there is no one to go out and hang with even if it is something as simple as drink a couple of beers at local bar I don’t.

So here I am… broken and lonely. Always alone…

~Sky~