A Cruel form of Closure

 I was talking to my friend the other day and I came to a rather terrible realization. One of the reasons I continued to return to past relationships was just so I could end them on my terms. I felt that way with Jacquelin were after she ended it all I wanted was her back. After leaving her I never felt that way about her again.. The same with Brittnnie. I went back to them… and just ended it on my terms in my time in my way… And now… I don’t feel for them the same as I used to …

Does this make me a terrible person? I am not sure…

On another note my current target weight is 240. I weighed in at 380. Thats 140lbs I have to lose. that shouldn’t be an issue. I am switching to a vegetarian diet and adding more exercise. I should be able to rock off that weight with no problem.

Future me here I come
~Sky~