Update and Clarification

Just to let you all know that I have been in the pysch ward tons of times before so I know waht it’s about and I used to be on lots of meds which is why I don’t want to go on meds. But I am saying that I will now because I am too far gone. If positive thinking and art would work for me now then I am all for it but believe me I am constantly trying to do those things and I am still feeling out of my mind. I hate meds and all that but right now, they probably WILL help me cuz I definately am going crazy. I can’t pull myself out of it and I am a pretty strong person. I don’t like admitting failure and esp, admitting that I am losing it while I have kids. That’s so not like me but right now it IS me. Thanks for the notes though however, all I have to say is : if it were only that simple……