Pretty Good Day…Lost some fat too..lol.

So I am back writing another entry, yay for me!!! I am also happy to say that I lost at least a pound since yesterday…WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Could not be happier. I have been eating small healthy meals, not snacking too much, no night eating (except my spitz if I feel the need to binge) and going on my Wii everyday and making sure I go outside at least once in the day to do something physical (walk, park, sledding, etc.). It is paying off. I am hoping that with canging my lifestyle that these pounds I am SLOWLY shedding I will be able to keep them off instead of my starve quick fix cuz I know I can’t starve myself forever, unless I wish to die soon and I can’t do that since i have 2 wonderfully amazing kids counting on me.

So, all in all, I am pretty proud of myself and my progress. Oh ya and I am still smoke free so that is also a HUGE accomplishment. I feel so free having quit and happy and joyful and it is awesome.

Anyways, I took my kids out to a little park today and then we went for a walk in my old neighbourhood (a place that holds a lot of memories for me). I loved living there and everytime I go there I feel this deep longing in me. Not sure if the longing feeling is just cuz I miss being single and free, no kids or hubby. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family and wouldn’t go back for anything but i do wish I would have not taken for granted what i had then. But then again thinking back, I didn’t have much. I cut everyday, overdosed lots, starved myself, did dumb shit and was miserable. So I guess I better take these rose colored glasses off, lol and be grateful and happy with what i have. I just feel great. I am starting to love living, starting to feel happiness and joy and best of all FREEDOM….It feels amazing.

Anyways, will try my best to update you all more regularly and hope ur all doing fantastic….Hang in there. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if u can’t see it yet. Just keeping taking small steps and pushing forward and u will get there…..