Over 2 weeks on meds now…Feeling Good.

Sorry for my long overdue update. I seem to do that a lot. Come on often for awhile and then disappear. I am back on and gonna keep trying to update often. Anyways, it has now been over 2 weeks on Cipralex and I am still feeling great. NO adverse side effects so that is good. I did notice however that I had two days where my mood was a bit off and I was a bit up and down and irritable. I tried to control it but it was there. And then guess what? I got my wonderful monthly gift. I had lost this wonderful blessing from nature but have had it back for a bit now and it’s irregular and all that but I am charting it now so I can see if there is a timeline for when I will be bitchy. LOL. Anyways, I am good other than that. My eating is a bit more normal, I weigh myself way less often, now only twice a day instead of my over 20 and I go to bed about 1 hour earlier than I was going before. My head feels less dizzy and explosive with thoughts. I see more able to manage my days and all the tasks in it without gettting constantly overloaded. My mood is also way way more stable. Even when I get irritated I don’t fly off the handle like before and the intensity of it is way less.

Now, as for other news. My cousin just had a baby girl and I went to see her in the hospital the other day and just holding the baby brought back so many beautiful memories for me, especially of me having my first child, my daughter. I think the first is the most precious as everything is so new and wonderfuly. You have all that time with just you and baby and it’s so magical. With the second it was still wonderful but you are also more busy so have less one on one time with the baby. But nonetheless, just seeing the little baby made me yearn for another. I know you all think I am probably crazy just thinking bout it. You’re probably thinking, you are  still unstable blah blah blah and you shouldn’t jeapordize your progress and whatnot. But I so so want another one but my husband doesn’t. I am not sure that it would be good or not for me to have another but I just keep thinking I want to experience that again, being pregnant and holding the baby for the first time, childbirth and everything. It’s all so magical. But then I start worrying and thinking, well if I have another then maybe something will be wrong or it will turn out to be a bad kid when it’s older, like I would be pushing my luck. More kids=more chances of a bad seed,lol.. Anyways, my husband’s brother also had a baby girl today. They live in Bangladesh however. But it just seems that baby fever is in the air.  I just wish I knew whether I was meant to have another child or not. Probably not right?

Other news, we are starting the process of registering our daughter in school for Kindergarten, so exciting. She is super excited and gets all giddy just talking about it. Well the other day we took her to the school nearest our house because we are restricted to choosing a school in our area. The school was really old and small and I didn’t really like it but we were only registering her there just in case we didn’t get into this other school in our town that we registered her in. It’s a school of arts and is therefore a school of choice so is not restricted to people living in the area. However, they have a new policy for this year where you have to go through a selection process to see if the school is right for our kid. At first I thought they would select if our child could go or not but now I am thinking we select if we want our child to go there. All the parents wishing to register their kids in that school have to go to a meeting next week where they will tell us about their school and where we will meet the kindergarten teacher. Then in the letter it says they will then phone to confirm our enrollment. I think that sounds like she will get in right?> IT’s so confusing. But it does sound like a great school. It integrates the regular acedemics with drama, music, arts, etc. My daughter loves all that stuff so I think it would suit her well.

Anyways, I am going off now. It’s friday already tomorrow. YAY. I am so excited to have the weekend here. Hope you all are well.