very personal….
1. Ever cheated on someone? How many times?
Nope I have not. Close but never did!
2. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
17 actually.
3. How many people have you given oral sex to?
probably 3 or 4. maybe.
4. Do you know anyone who was raped?
Yep.
5. Did you ever do anything sexual on your parents bed?
Haha yeah.
6. Ever been “the other person” in an affair?
Nope.
7. How many people do you have a crush on right now?
No One…I Love Dan.
8. How many people have you been in love with?
Ive only been madly completely in love with one person and thats Dan. but I did love Scott..you guys should remember Scott if youve been reading my diary long enough.
9. Ever had a one night stand?
No.
10. Ever gotten drunk and couldn’t remember the night?
Yeah, the first time I really got drunk with Dan and his friends. I didnt eat for two days and then i drank alot and I dont remember anything from that night. Dan tells me the whole thing and i cant remember anything. I guess he had to carry me around and he took me in the shower to sober me up a bit before going to bed. hes such a sweetheart when it comes to that.
11. Ever been sexually harassed and/or assaulted?
Yep. at work in Va.
12. Ever had a crush on your neighbor?
Haha actually yeah when i was in 6th-7th grade.
13. Ever snuck out of the house?
A few times.
14. How many illegal drugs have you tried?
a few. not gonna name them.
15. Do you do any drug regularly?
nope.
16. If you’re underage, do you still drink and/or smoke cigarettes?
Im not underage for smoking and i do smoke but i am underage for drinking and yes i do drink. but in september i will deff be able to drink by law lol.
17. Ever cut yourself?
Yes
18. Ever attempted suicide?
Once.
19. Ever been to therapy?
Yep when i was in 5th grade. lmao.
20. Have you ever been so upset that you stopped eating?
Yes
21. Are you clinically depressed? Are you taking anything for it?
No and No.
22. Ever hooked up with someone and regretted it?
Yeah a couple ppl. but they werent hooking up we were dating.
23. How old were you when you first got kissed?
My first frenchy was in kindergarden.
24. Is there any “friend” of yours that you secretly hate but talk to anyway?
Nope.
25. Ever been in a relationship and wanted to end it, but stuck with it for some reason?
Yeah one word…Isaiah. I stayed with him cuz if i mentioned or even hinted i wanted to break up he would flip out and cry and if i wouldnt pick up my phone he would start calling my house phone in all hours of the night. he was fucking psycho.
26. Ever sent naked pictures to someone?
yeah. when Dan use to live in PA.
27. What about sent them to someone you met over the internet?
Well i technically met dan over the internet but i didnt send them until we actually had met each other in person.
28. Ever been abused?
Yes
29. Did you ever run away?
a few times i wanted to.
30. Do you ever lie to yourself about things so much that you believe it?
yeah a few times.
31. Ever liked someone else while dating someone?
no.
32. Ever dated a friend’s ex?
yeah once.
33. Ever done something with your friend’s significant other?
no.
34. Did anyone ever confide in you about being gay/lesbian?
yeah.
35. Have you ever questioned your sexuality?
actually yeah. a few times. yes i know heather i told you i would never but yep i have lol.
36. Do you know of someone who has done a horrible crime but never got caught?
Yeah
37. Ever stole a large sum of money?
no.
38. Ever purposely threw up?
yeah.
39. Ever had an eating disorder? What happened?
yeah i use to NEVER eat. and when i felt like i was gonna faint then i would eat a little bit. IT REALLY WORKED for a long time…I LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT…until i went to the dr. and they asked me if i had a problem cuz i had lost like 60 pounds in like 3 months and that wasnt good…well to them at least. i wanna loose that again…hmmmm….
40. Did you or anyone you know have an abortion?
i didnt but i know someone that did. i had a miscarriage. for everyone that doesnt know that. and honestly im so THANKFUL i did…cuz that would of been Isaiahs child. NO!!!!!
41. Were you or any of your siblings an accident?
nope i dont have siblings and i was an accident but i deff wasnt planned lol.
42. Ever found porn on your parents’ computer?
haha no.
43. Do you look at porn?
ive watched it with Dan a few times lol…but we dont watch long enough before were jumping each other haha.
44. How many people have seen you naked?
too many. parties get crazy.
45. What about through pictures?
Dans pic…mmmm lol
46. Ever had phone sex and/or cybered?
lol dan and me use to have phone sex…with the webcam lol
47. Ever got a piercing behind your parents’ back?
well kinda…the first time i pierced my lip but i wasnt really living with them at that moment in time…we were fighting and i was living with heather banard.
48. Ever sold or bought an illegal substance?
Yep
49. What’s your #1 biggest fear?
death i guess.
50. Have you ever faced that fear? What happened?
lol no or i wouldnt be doing this. but ive seen so many family members and friends pass away.