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As I’m an extremely introverted personality most of my “god “ moments have occurred while alone, making worship appear to be not a communal activity. At least for me.  And I feel kind of vulnerable saying so.  I think I have my most powerful, profound worship moments when alone….. but after a certain amount of scrutiny I find that statement to be somewhat untrue. 

For me, “god” moments occur when I allow myself to feel extreme devotion, humility or intense love or admiration for the life I have been given.  Since Dylan has died there have been whole gaps of time when I felt it a travesty to be grateful for the hands I have been dealt.  Conversely there have been whole moments  in time, since Dylan died, where it is my extreme devotion to life itself that is the only thing that gets me out of bed and I am left in awe of this intensity of emotion.  And all of these moments in time happen when I am alone, totally and utterly alone in this whole big, wide world.

Here’s where my sense of worship gets communal…. It just doesn’t feel to me that the cycle of worship is complete until I take these “god’ moments and with greatness of character; honour; dignity; worthiness, I share them with any and all who will listen to me testify to just how good my “god” has been.

So to answer that question, in a rather lofty and longwinded manner, to no one who asked it, my favourite moments of worship  happen when I am doing a sermon/homily and I am talking about those moments of abject loneliness and how they somehow, with the grace of god, turned into the most profound moments in my life.  And I look out at the tear stained faces and I watch their eyes as they turn the corner with me and with greatness of character; honour, dignity and worthiness, they experience that profound worship moment with me.

Then, and only then, is the cycle of worship complete, yeah?