…beautiful disaster…

Nothing you confess, could make me love you less……

hmmm…. what to say what to say. i fell off the wagon last night. I hadn’t been drinking but decided I missed my friends at the square (and my bartender 🙂  so we went out for a couple drinks. billy hooked my up with this really yummy drink, and let us stay till 2 while he closed up. he rules. I met this boy, named Bill, he looked mad familiar and was the cutest boy in the bar, lol, so by the end of the night I started talking to him… I’m suppose to go chill with him tonight.. I prob will, nothing better to do, The money situation isn’t great but I guess spending it is better than sitting home being depressed right.??

So i’m wearing this stupid blue rubber band that once held asparagus together, kody had it on his wrist the whole time he was here and he gave it to me at the airport, so i’ve had it on since then. When I got home from work last night i realized it was missing off of my wrist and i couldn’t find it anywhere, so i come to work today and look in the dumpster, were i took off a rubber glove and threw it in and sure enough it was on top. haha i can’t believe I found it, i’m such a trash picker. Dean would be amused….

my latest v.c. andrews book is out. they are all the same, but alas i still read them ALL. so thats kinda keeping me occupied.

Bike week this week. I leave thursday morning. get back on sunday. usually it turns into a long weekend of drinking and doing various bad things, i think we’re getting mushrooms, which may be fun in the middle of the woods 😉 i asked dale to come with me, tell his wife he got abducted or something. GRR why does he have to be married?? Dammit. lol, OH WELL.

k i’m finishing this up…. running out of things to say.

        Fool To Think

Look at me dreaming of you
All I could hope is to have you
To have you walking with me
Laughing so in love, we two
Almost drunkenly
I did imbibe of this
Fantasy of you and me

Was I a fool to think?
The way you looked at me
I swear you did
But you looked away too quick
Was I a fool, was I a fool to think
That you would take me home
As if I was yours
Was I a fool to think at all?

I’ve grown tired of love
You are the trouble with me
I watch you walk right by
I smile, you do not notice me
Treat me recklessly
All you do is toss me pennies out
But the silence in me is screaming
Won’t you come and get me?

Was I a fool to think?
The way you looked at me
I swear you did
But you looked away too quick
Was I a fool, was I a fool to think
That you would take me home
As if I was yours
Was I a fool to think at all?

Was I a fool to think?
The way you looked at me
I swear you did
But you looked away too quick
Was I a fool, was I a fool to think
That you would take me home
As if I was yours
Was I a fool to think at all?

You make a mess of me here
I dance a thousand steps for you
If you say yes to me
I’ll be whatever gets you through

You make a mess of me here (was I a fool? )
I dance a thousand steps for you (was I a fool? )
Was I a fool, was I a fool to think?
Am I a fool, am I a fool for you?

DMB