So Much to Tell
Some interesting things have gone on since last I wrote:
At least one act of my litte wedding drama has come to a close. After trying three times over two and a half weeks to reach Colie to get together and talk about how she really feels about the wedding – and getting voicemail and no call back each time – I called my maid-of-honor (at least for the moment) Kimmy in Florida and asked her if she’d been able to reach Nicole at all in the past few weeks. The response was disheartening on several levels; the usually bright and bubbly Kimmy was dead-pan and unhappy sounding. She paused for a few seconds after my question, then said slowly and unsurely, "well … i think her phone’s been on the fritz lately …"
"And she hasn’t checked her voicemail in all this time?" i queried.
"well, i don’t know – i talked to her last week sometime …"
"Alright, well, i’ll give her another try then," I allowed.
she sounded relieved when i hung up.
so, i called nicole’s phone – and got a new voice message on her voice mail. obviously she’s gotten her phone working again … and is still ignoring it when i call. so I left a message that went something like this:
"hello – this is nikki again. I’ve been trying to get ahold of you for over two weeks, and haven’t heard back from you. Kimmy said your phone’s been on the fritz, but i’m hard-pressed to believe that you’ve not checked your voice mail in all that time. So concidering the fact that i can’t seem to get you to talk to me, and concidering the nasty things about me and Jon you were heard to say at Kimmy’s going-away party – unless you call me within – oh, a day, and tell me this was somehow a huge misunderstanding, i’m going to continue my plans for the wedding without including you in them. I’m sorry it’s come down to this – but then again, there it is. see you around."
i never got a call back.
so, that chapter is closed, but another chapter is still without resolution: will Kimmy prove herself a real friend and continue to be my maid of honor without reproaching me for the way i delt with Nicole, or will she fall back on her old pattern of, when Nicole decides to sever all contact with me for whatever purile reason, Kimmy follows her out of my life for however long Nicole thinks i’m the Enemy. So with this, i’m justifyably concerned. Then again, if she DOES abandon me, I will know once and for all who my true friends are … cold comfort though that knowledge is. I wonder how long I should wait – or not – before calling kim and informing her – although i’m sure nicole’s called her already to pontificate about what a horrid bitch i am that i "broke up" with her over the phone – even though of course she’s never deigned to call me back.
*sigh* what will i do if kim drops out too? do i dare ask ricky (my darling but sarcastic, stoic, 6’4" younger brother) to bend tradition and stand on my side of the aisle? should i ask ivy to join the party so there’s at least some semblance of balance …
i don’t know. it shouldn’t matter that much, should it? but it does. i don’t know what to do …