Feeling Young & Feeling Old

Ryan and Susan are getting married in just a few days!  i just finished altering Susan’s dress on monday, and i was so worried about it being right, but she tried it on yesterday when Jon and i went over for the cookout, and it was perfect.  and even though i TOLD her i didn’t want anything for taking care of the dress for her, she and Ryan went out and got me these adorable silver earings that are the kanji for "friend".  it was so sweet … i’m so exited for saturday i can’t stand it.  They’re just such nice people, and cute and fun and goofy … and i hope they stay like that forever. 

on the other hand, i’m feeling more and more overwhelmed with our situation.  i still don’t have a new job, Jon keeps talking about wanting a second job (but now that he has the midshift, how could he work one?), and i need a break from doing stuff for other people.  i want time to go to the gym again!!  i’m feeling tired, fat and pathetic.

needless to say, the two opposing feelings are fighting a sumo match in my head, and all i’m getting out of it is a headache.  all i can do is update my checkbook, write my rent check, and hope i have enough money to buy a top for saturday to go with the skirt i have yet to fix so my underware doesn’t show through, buy funky fun underware for Susan’s langerie/bachellorette party on friday night, and hope i have enough left over to get my nails done and survive til next payday.

weeeeeeeee …