Bordering On

… physical exhaustion.
… mental overload.
… an hysterical outburst.
… total meltdown.

take your pick …

i’ve been going non-stop since … i can’t remember.  since last week, if not longer.  was in the studio extra on saturday, til 11:30 on monday night, 12:30 on tuesday night, and i’m going back right after work today, and i’ll be there til i’m done – when ever that ends up being …  thursday night is class til 8:30 then HOME, blessed be, friday is pick mike up in baimbridge or something hiddious then kareoke, saturday we drive to VA for the wedding, then the party afterwards which is supposed to be in OUR room at the hotel which means no sleep til God-knows-when, then drive back to ohio on sunday and jon thinks we’ll be up early enough to get back in time to do "something" with ken (laughs hysterically) … 

next week i have to remember to go to my 7 Ideas proff’s office at the highschool to take the midterm i’ll be missing this saturday because of the wedding, back to the lab because the "hystorical techniques" main piece is due the 31st, a halloween party the 21st AND the 28th which, of course, i havn’t had ANY time to work on my costume for, i have yet to grow enough spine to dare and call my supposed-maid of honor and find out if she’s going to abandon me as well …

i’m seriously thinking of buying a box of caffine pills to get me through … well, the month, really … i’ve been smoking way too much, i can’t focus at work, i’m distracted, i miss jon so much …

i have to keep reminding myself that the horrid thoughts that go through my head so often now are just the products of being so very, very tired.