I Can’t Even Remember…

… the last time I wrote an entry. I’ve gotten rather lax in my record keeping.

I’m thinking of snapshots of my life.

Now:

I’m married, hit four years as of today, and have a wonderful wife who is beautiful and caring. I have a three and a half year old daughter who sees me as the light of her world. I’m Assistant Manager at a company I’ve worked for for 8 years now and I only have a 4 minute drive to work. My wife and I own our house and we’re thinking of getting into a bigger one because we’d like to have another baby.

5 Years ago:

I was single and living in a shitty little apartment in Dubuque, IA. My personal life was a mess. I was still hurting from a previous love but was sleeping with a friend for companionship. And someone new had just entered my life and was in my thoughts constantly. I was severly in debt and didn’t have a clue as to how to get out, or even the forethought to think about it most of the time. I was lonely.

10 Years ago:

I was most likely drunk at this very moment 10 years ago. I was drunk quite a bit back then. I was in my sophmore year at Iowa State University and didn’t know that it would be my last semester. I drank and skipped class and ended the semester with a 0.0 grade point. My girlfriend was attending college in Madison, WI at the time, we had met over the internet. I thought it was love but looking back I know that it was just loneliness that brought the two of us together. You can’t have a real relationship when you only see each other a half a dozen times or less a year.

I’ve come far in my life. Some of it has been through my own actions, accidental usually but sometimes purposeful. Mostly where I am right now is thanks to my wife. Without her I’d be in a completly different place and much worse off in the long run. I can’t begin to express how much she means to me and how much I love her. I love you Sharon and the last four years has been worth the sadness of leaving my family and I’m sorry for the arguments we’ve had. Happy Anniversary.