Unloading…

hmmmm….
I just got off the phone with my very dear friend. I love talking to her. She lifts my spirits and reminds me of who I am. She also reminds me of how low I am and all the demons come rushing in, daggers in hand.
She is so far away, but when we talk I feel so close, like I could walk outside, jump in the car and go see her. Then the call ends and I remember just how far we really are.
"Across the pond" doesn’t quite cut it.

We talked about numerous things. I talked about the old me and the now me. Not new, but now. If THIS is the new me, then I dont even like me. And I wouldn’t blame me for that. Im moody, dull, fat, unmotivated and depressed. But, I am also loving, sensitive (too sensitive) and lost.

My 25th birthday is coming up and I feel like I am stuck. Not even at a crossroads. Just stuck. I have no idea what to do with this life. I am so envious of the older people who can look back with pride and say they actually LIVED. I want to be them. I want to be able to use this life to its full, but on todays world you need money. Everything costs money. You probably cant even live in the mountains and live off the land, because I bet you that
1). Someone owns it and it is private property.
2). The animals are protected or some shit so you cant kill them.
3). The water is probably dirty as fuck because of all the polution.
AND….
4). Its probably against the state laws to light a fire.

So… yeah, you would be dead pretty soon.

On the note about the animals. WHAT is up with animal rights????
Ok, let me say this cause I may get some nasty notes if I don’t. I LOVE animals. I have two dogs, love horses and generally I think that they are great. BUT….

PETA…. PETA is a freaking JOKE.
Im sorry. I am all for defending against cruelty to animals, but thats it. I believe there is a food chain and that it is ok to kill and eat animals. I think it is ok to wear their furs. I think it is ok to breed animals for meat and hide.
There, I said it. Am I a bad person?

Here is the thing. I got into a heated conversation with someone about seal hunting. Before this convo, I was pretty much against it and I was all about saving the whales. This person was not against it. So, I decided to look into it. To research it. I honestly thought that I was going to come back with the same argument of how bad it was but, Im not…. Im actually on the fence now.
PETA has done such a good job of showing us how cruel and savage it is to kill seals. The have infiltrated our minds with images and scenes of such inhumanity in regards to this issue. They have focused on how the seal hunters ‘focus’ on the younger seals and leave them without mothers to die.
Good old PETA.
What they fail to tell you is the other side. How there is over 6 million seals in Newfoundland and part of seal hunting (im sorry to say) is population control.
Every year the hunters only kill about 8 – 10% of the seal population.
Seal hunting is one of the number one income resources for the country in Newfoundland. (In other words, it is like us having cows and sheep and whatnot).
Seal hunters are harassed on a daily basis while trying to do their job.

Now, heres another thing. I know that they club them, we ALL know that they club them and while it is not a pretty sight, I can KIND OF understand it. They cannot shoot them. They will flee, and I do believe that they do their best to kill them immediately.
These people do this for a living, not fun. There may be some who get pleasure from it, but I am not talking about them.

I guess I am ok with seal hunting, I just wish that they would find a better way of slaying them.
I just think that if it is ok to chop chickens heads off, or slice pigs throats then it is ok to kill seals. How can I judge? Just because they are cute? I think I would be a hypocrite to sit in a Mcdonalds eating a big mac complaining about how cruel it was to kill seals.

Think about it… where did your burger come from? The meat fairy?

I dont think so.

I know this is going to get nasty notes and I am not trying to change your mind, Im just letting it out.

🙂