In lust…

Hey all, this may be to much information, so please read with caution. im going to be brutally honest about everything right now as this is my diary and this is my right.

So, im off on business every week for the next two months. I leave on Saturdays and return on Wednesdays. I work wonderful 14 hour days and spend a lot of time with certain people. I love my husband, but found myself taking my rings off on my trips… not to cheat on him… wow, this is going to sound weird.

I love going to the hotel room and unpacking and showering and taking off my rings and being surrounded by nothing but MY stuff. No Brian stuff, no Holly stuff… just me, myself and I.

So, the more alone time I am having, the more frisky I am getting. Sexually. There is a guy named Tobias on the trip with us, I want to say that he is in his early 20’s, and OH MY GOD, do I want to fuck him so bad. Sorry, I told you…TMI.

He is not your typical sexy guy, but I never did go for that. He has that kind of odd, unusual sexiness. He is smart and funny and has got the most beautiful smile. We have been around together alot as I have said before, no alone or anything, but together with other people if that makes sense and he is just wonderul. I find myself trying to impress him and make him laugh and tell him stupid little stories and in my head I am screaming at myself to SHUT THE FUCH UP YOU STUPID BITCH….

But, I don’t… no, I go on flirting and daydreaming and wanting to grab him and rip his clothes off and screw him silly in the hotel pool, or my bed, or the shower… I dont care, anywhere…

So, now my head is filled with crazy fantasies. Crazy, beautful, timeconsuming fantasies….

Hmmm, and someome said to me the other day, "What would you do if he turned up at ou room and just kissed you or something?"

What would I do???? Hmmm….God, that would be hard. Im not in love with him. I love Brian. I adore Brian, I just want to play with Tobias… just a little bit… is that so bad?

I tell you one thing, he has made masturbation a whole lot more fun lately….

Any thoughts???

hehehe…

Rachel

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