that old black magic…

i’ve got a very strange feeling going through my stomach at the moment.  its a mix of many emotions…

i don’t even know where to begin. 

first… let me start out by saying that i’ve been so busy lately that writing about me kind of felt like a waste of time.  not a waste of time i guess… but more i needed to be doing other things.  i’m just glad i’ve been keeping up on you all.  if i haven’t noted, i apologize.  usually i have enough time to get through all the favorites that have updated, but not enough time to note.  (crappy excuse… i know)

want to say a few things about whats going on… however, i’m not sure that going in depth with them is a good idea.

• very frustrated by our director right now (no, its not the same director that we had in the fall).  needless to say the entirety of YAP is frustrated by the lack of artistic integrity being given to us at the current moment, and all that might entail.
• a week and half ago i got a call from the previous director (from the fall) asking if i would sing for the Lindemann Program (the Met Opera young artist program).  he feels its a good idea.  keeping with this idea i now have to fly to New York on saturday night (red eye) sing for the Met, then come back sunday night (to be at work at 10am monday morning).  i’m very weary of this, but realize i need to do this. 
• something is happening to someone i know.  i won’t go into detail, but they are very close to me…  i’m not sure if its true or not, but i have this gut feeling that something is going on that i don’t know about.  which might be good or bad.  no idea.  i could be imagining things for all i know.

its been very crazy and try as i might, keeping up with the daily things i need to be doing is becoming more and more difficult.  on top of this i still need to finish 3 papers so i can finish my friggin’ degree at PLU.  when do i have time for that?!  oy…

there is one more thing thats worrying me a little.  i need to learn 7 operas in a year.  i’m going to list them (more for my sake then yours).

1. Falstaff (not quite learned yet)
2. La bohème
3. Peter Grimes
4. Rita
5. Trouble in Tahiti
6. something by Debussy (i can never remember the title)
7. Gianni Schicchi

i have a year to do it.  (almost exactly a year).  and yes, they are in the order that i need to learn them.  its actually not that bad.  Trouble in Tahiti and Debussy don’t have that much.  and to be honest i only need to learn two scenes from Peter Grimes… however i would like to just learn the whole thing so i don’t have to later.

anyway.  i really have nothing to write about.  i’m sorry i haven’t done anything entertaining in a long time.  all i do is bitch/complain/worry and fill out surveys.  granted, it is my diary, but at the same time… i want it to be remotely enjoyable.

i am rarely able to be funny.  and especially lately, around all the other yap people, i can’t compare with their wit.  i just get to laugh all the time, which, of course there is nothing wrong with that.  i just wish i was as smart as the rest of them.

okay, bed time.  need to get up really early for the run through tomorrow.

– noah

p.s. i don’t say this enough either… love you all.