if i only had a brain…

i could wile aways the hours,
conferrin’ with the flowers
consulting with the rain…

*written after finishing the entry* WARNING!  this is longer than i expected…  might want to turn back now.

what wonderful lyrics.  i don’t know why but i really do like that song.  i’m sad that they cut out his big dance scene too…  it was really good (its on the special edition DVD i think).

lets see… whats up y’all!  nothing has been going on with me to be honest.  i’ve had rehearsal every night this week (which is why i haven’t exactly been wanting to type).  its not that i’m avoiding everyone.  i could never do that!  i enjoy you all far too much!  (especially little note wars… lol)

however, i’m trying to do two things.  1) i’m trying to stay off my computer during the day more (in hopes i’ll turn to practicing to break the boredom… HA… its worth a try).  and 2) keep my computer time limited because, as much as i enjoy my computer (games, OD, etc) i really don’t get much out of it anymore.  so, hopefully i’ll find more productive things to do (i.e. practice… lol, i’m not sure its working yet).

on the other hand…  i miss you all!  so everyday after rehearsal i try and come here and read everyone’s new posts!  and, (as the case was last night) i was so sore and tired i could only leave my name as a note.  i’m sorry.  i will attempt to rectify that today.

what else… hmm…  *looks around room*  i really have nothing to write about.

OH!  i meant to thank you all for the note lately!  i truly love getting notes (even if they are silly ones, those are usually the best!)  so, i just thought i’d thank you all again.

which reminded me (i’m not sure why) that i wanted to write something down.

yesterday i went on a date.  i had planned this date like 2 weeks ago (she works for Seattle Opera in their Educational Dept and they are all very busy right now with this being the end of the season and all).  so… wait…

last week i went in to get my paycheck and decided to stop over and say hi (and i had a question… sorta…)  so i step into her office and her eyes get really big and she looks from me to her watch and back to me, "… um… its next week right?"  i laughed and told her yes, and that i was just there to say hi and ask if she had specific dates for the thing they wanted me to sing…  as we were huddling to look at her computer (she pulled me down next to her) i noticed she smelled really nice.  (ladies, help me out on this one…)  i didn’t say anything right aways, but as soon as i was out of the building i sent her this text message,

"I didn’t want to say anything next to your co-worker, but you smell really good."
to which she replied,
"thank you, and yes, that would have been awkward… :o)"

my questions is this… is it okay to compliment someone’s smell?  i do for the simple reason that it is really the only sense i still have that is any good.  so for her to smell nice is very nice for me.  i would have complimented her looks (because she is beautiful) but her scent that morning really struck me…  anyway…  let me know what you think.

on to the date: so i arrive yesterday and we decide to just walk over to a cafe that’s nearby.  we walk over there, have lunch (i didn’t know alot about her so i asked most of the questions, and she knows quite a bit about me because she is going to be my boss next, sort of, for the Young Artist Program next year).  so learned some good stuff about her and had great conversation!  when we started it was almost business like, but by the end she had loosened up and we had great conversation.

so we walked back to the office and as were having great conversation i just followed her all the way back to her office.  so, when we reach the office she turns to me and says, "thanks for lunch, we’ll call you if there is anything else."

she smiled at me, i smiled back and left.

now, i thought this was a date.  and i was pretty sure that i had made that obvious that i was looking for a date.  so you can probably understand why i felt a little weirded out by the fact that she was so business like at the end.  then it occured to me that her boss was at his desk around a corner (she had greeted him when she entered).  that and i received a text message right after i exited the building.  it was a cute message about her talking too much.  so i wrote back saying that she didn’t talk to much at all and i wouldn’t have invited her if she was gonna be quiet.  i also told her i enjoyed lunch and getting to know her very much and hoped to do it again.  so if she was questioning whether it was a date or not, hopefully she is no longer…

anyway, it was fun.  it strikes me as funny that the moment i had felt my worst about relationships and such, my absolute bottom, i begin to like someone here (who i still am very interested in…) and also have several people here in my life spark my interest (not to mention a few hit on me…)  so…  i’m not sure whats going on, but i’m gonna go on not caring and see what comes of it.  :o) 

kind of exciting, no?

– noah