6:40am

so i’ve been up for a couple hours now.  haven’t been able to sleep.  oddly enough, i have a reason this time.

yesterday was the MONC Regional Competition (The MET Competition).  back in november i won the districts and moved on to the regionals.  i went and sang, and did really well.  if you couldn’t tell, i didn’t win… which, to be honest is not whats bothering me.  the girl that did win was so much better!  oh my god was she better!!!!!!

anyway… what’s bothering me is what one of the judges told me.  she told me something not a single judge/teacher/coach/anything has ever told me.  and she was very smug and blunt about it (which, normally i would be okay with).  it really doesn’t matter what she said (it would take me too long to explain for non opera singers… lol).  however, what she said kind of disturbed me.  and i know it shouldn’t have…

the other reason is that i feel a little gipped.  which, unfortunately was my own fault.  i sang a song from Rigoletto (a great opera by the way) which has a slightly quicker tempo, and has a few high notes, nothing special.  but its a fun song to sing, and people enjoy it.  let me stress something, there was nothing particularly fireworkish about this song…

well, for my second piece they asked me to do a song that doesn’t exactly fit my voice type (the only reason its on my list is because i would have been admonished if i had not offered it).  granted, by hearing me sing this they hear if i have the control and stamina i would need as an opera singer.

the problem with that piece is its no fireworks either.  almost NO high notes, and because of the "control" aspect of the piece, beauty (while very much present) is not its highest quality.

which comes to the reason i’m depressed about this.  i could have… SHOULD HAVE picked a better piece for my starter.  something that showed off what i have.  i had two pieces on my list that would have fit that category completely! (and really… my hope was that they were going to ask for one of them instead for my second piece…) 

anyway…  i feel bad that i didn’t win… which is silly because i worked hard, sang well and came away with an honorable mention.  *sigh*

so, enough about me, how are you all doing?

– noah