thanks for making me..

a fighter.
You see there are individuals that hurt me. They broke me down. They tried to break my spirit and for them I just want to say thank you. Because If they werent such destructive individuals. I wouldnt have adapted into who I am now. So thank you. Just like I have my positive list I have my negative list too. And for those people I need to say it loud and proud.Thank you.
This song below depicts it well. So thank you for showing me.
1.Mister Intense:He was the most recent of those that hurt me. He showed me that I needed to adapt my pain into art and without him I wouldnt have sold a painting called Lovely suffering. It was that pain he gave me by lying, and being a general ass that made me money. So thank you.
2. Glen: Who broke up with me because he could not accept who I was. And you know what Up until now we got along but he decided that he was a fake friend. 🙂 Nice thing to know I guess.
3.Jamie Jewell: She was my best friend for ten years and she stops talking to me. In fact I dont even know who she is anymore. After looking back I realize from her actions she was never really a friend.
4.Tj. Fucked me up. But in the end it fixed me.
I just want to say thank you. Because with out these people to break my spirit. Hurt my feelings. Lie to me. And everything else they did I would not be who I am now. I would not have what I have now. And for that I am …VERY VERY THANKFUL.
So thank you.: )
Music Video:FIGHTER (by Christina Aguilera)

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 so now on this diary is about my metemorphisis.

Who I am now is not anything those people would recognize. Who I am now is free from the pain I suffered from those individuals. And who I am now has nothing to do with them. So from now On I move forward. My positive influences that motivate me shall be what I talk about. The beauty in my life shall be what I write about. The pain that cut me shall never be a topic again. Becuase this black moth has changed. And I know I am ..

Beautiful. I do not need anyone’s justification.

I know what I know. It motivates me more then any apoligies or lies or half truthes.

I am my own life. 🙂

Love,Siarai