Take it all in stride.

When things feel complicated it is all good to just take it in stride. I don’t want to anaylize or contemplate it. Makes my head hurt.
I do know one thing. Whatever I am heading in to I must keep my bearings. It feels good and undoubtably makes me get a warm glow.
It might be the physical activity. This will not make sense to parties uninvolved and for that I am sorry.
I do not wish to elaborate. As you know by now even though I have a diary I am still a very private person.

My heart has taken quite a journey the last couple monthes.
I talk to D. Still. Enjoy talking to him actually. The friendship is nice. Not sure what else there is to report there. He has been on extra board as of late so I haven’t actually seen very much of him.

Funny How sometimes things just work better a certain way.
As those of you that read my diary and are really close to me know: I have been sick. It takes up a large percentage of my life lately. With doctors and things.
My bone dissorder has been causing my severe pain in my neck. And two days ago I had an allergic reaction to my pain medication. Yay.
Great. Wonderous.
I have gotten to were I depended on such things.
Time to cut my self from a stronger mold now and trek on.
Who believes I can do it? (Show of hands)
Anyway. I work tonight. Hopefully as long as I do not bend my neck one way or another too much I should be able to get something done.
I can not afford to go back to the doctor again.
I have no insurance and currently I am living pay check to pay check.
I do love Bud. That boy is wonderful. I was so tired today and instead of waking me up he just crawled under my blankets and kissed me and snuggled me and let me sleep.
My cats tormented poor Jay when he came over to visit. We watched Witches of Eastwick and just talked and stuff.
Not sure. But I am not ready to remove my armor. Maybe in time I will be.
I am strange with new relationships. Wiether they be friends or other. So many people have fucked me over I am just sort of leary now.
Well much love mi friendlies,
Siarai