something eats me up from the inside out.

WHO KNEW (Pink)

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I am..Not on top of things to day some part of me is really sad. Here is why. I miss my exhusband. I know…Why would I miss someone that hurt me so much. But here is the deal along time ago before we got married before everything we were best friends. I miss him. I really really do. I miss how he just knew when I was sad and he would rub my back> I miss how he would whisper that he loved me in my ear until I feel asleep. I miss my friend. I really really do. This song by Pink..Reminds me of him.

When I see him now,it feels like a part of me is being eaten from the inside. Who he is now is not my Tj.He changed and I miss who he was. Who he is now just makes me inexplicably sad. When I first heard this song.I bawled. This song is..so accurate.If someone wouldve told me four years ago, It would all end and we would be*pretend*friends. I wouldve prolly beat the crap out of them. He said forever, and ever. I have never loved anyone like I loved him and right now I am sort of scared I ever will again.

So yes..I am having a bad Sara brain day.

I am hoping it gets better. In about two hours or so I might be getting to see someone hopefully..One can only hope.

I want to see him alot.

He seems to be the only person from the time frame when I was with Tj that I would prolly still even want to see. : )

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you’d be around
Uh huh
That’s right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That’s right

If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them up
Cause they’re all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I’d give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they’re long gone
I guess I just didn’t know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I’ll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won’t forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
Cause they’re all wrong and
That last kiss
I’ll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew
……………………..

I need more sleep..Or I think I am gonan get depressed and go crazy. ADios,S