Picture perfect

I try really hard. With this perfect smile.

In fact I try so hard I think I am just mimicing you.

It hurts to be unaware of who I really am.

Unaware if I am even me anymore.

Would I know?

Who was I anyway?

OR was I just mimicing the boy before you.

I rememberv once when I was me.

Now I am just a hollowed out shell of what I was. Filled with your thoughts,your idea of what I should be.

I should be happy.

I should be picture perfect.

So why are these tears on my cheeks?

Why are my hands shaking?

Why Am I so unsure of who I am?

*its all your fault,you called me beautiful, you turned me out and now I cant turn back.*

KPinK

June 18, 2010

Hey my mysterious mpd person lol I’m sorry it’s been a while n I mean a while, oh btw this is your boy from across the pond I still have that letter u sent me from years ago, and I remember all the late nights I had talking to u online, has your lil boy got out of his nappies yet cuz that was wen I last seen him on the web cam was running in the background lol, i miss u please send me a MSG bak x

I forgot to say I’m sorry for leaveing you along time ago I realli am, my email is jstef44@yahoo.com I added u on yahoo idk if u still use that lol it’s been a while, I hope we can still talk xxxx

Hey omg I can’t belive I’m speekng to u again omg lol my heart is racing with joy n happy feelings lol do u remember me or does the 27 differant parts of u remember me lol xxxxxx iv missed u

What’s your yahoo name n I’ll add u there