more answers.

Yes..I am still married. I want to be divorced. I want to be away from him. But things don’t work like that.

In fact I am told over and over again that things won’t work like that..

And I guess when shit rains..IT really rains for me.

Im sick.

The person I love acts like I dont exist..Which is great for him..whatever. If it was that easy for me then my heart would be fine. But it isnt.And I wish it was.

I am in a pissy mood. And instead of being kind to people I mightve took it out on someone..and Im sorry.

I just dont really wanna be me right now.

Being sick really sucks.The nearest appointment I can get is Tommorrow. ANd until then I just gotta hack and sneeze and cough. And avoid all human contact. In fear of getting everyone sick.

I havent gotta hug my son in four days.. mostly cz I dont wanna get him sick.

……….

I am tired of hurting people. I am tired of being me.

I am tired of it all. I dont really care anymore.

*Oh and edit*

I think it is really fucked up how someone is my friend when they need me and as soon as I feel fucked up or depressed or out of it..Or not feeling good they are no where to be found.

I do have some friends that dont do that..but it depresses the fuck out of me the ones that do that.

Fuck em..I dont need friends like that anyway.

SIarai