mine.

This is going out to me. I of course made it so other people can read it.But it goes out to me.

Why do you have to be so afraid of how you feel? Why are you so scared to love someone? WHy do you fear yourself being happy? Why do you feel the need to try to push a person away just because loving him terrifies you?

Why do you ramble about stupid things?

Why do you cry over a movie you have seen thirty times?

Why do you write letters to him and never let him see them?

Why do you ask for friendship when you want more?

Why must you live with your heart on your sleeve? Have you not learned your lesson yet?

Why do you talk to a person that bothers you? (ex bf)

Why do you cry so damn much?

Why be so stupidly emotional?

Why do you seek human affection, when the humans you seeked in the past, hurt you so largely beyond repair?

Why do they say time heals wounds when it isn t true?

Why must you love someone above your league?

Why make promises if later they will feel like obligations?

Why cry?

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hmm. I cant sleep. I wrote an entry before. then erased it. I am gonna stare at the ceiling..even though I highly doubt I will sleep. Fuck this. My head hurts. : ( I hate my brain.

Siarai