Long Way to Happy but Im not dead.

sorry this entry wont be cheerful.If you want cheerful read my body part entry I posted.

I took this picture. and It shows you through my eyes how I feel fairly well. I think.

I hurt inside. I blame you. You know who you are. I miss you. I do not think you care. I do not think you miss me. In fact I think sometimes I should just leave you alone. You wouldnt miss me anyway.

I hate when it feels like someone is playing around with my mind.

*yeah yeah yeah. There is always cracks,a crack of sunlight, a crack in the mirror,or on your lips.It is the morning on a sunset sunday, When all conversations twist,It is the fifth day of ice on a new tattoo,But the ice should be on our heads,Weonly spin the web to catch ourselves.*

I fucking miss you.But I dont think you hardly care. I should just wipe you off my radar.

I should just get you out of my head. I wish it was that easy.

You are just another cut.

Just another cut.

*one night to you lasted me six weeks,Just a bitter little pill now,just to try to sleep,No more waking up to innocence,say hello to hesitence,To everyone I meet…..But I got a bad bad feeling It is gonna take a long time to love,It is gonna take alot to hold on,It is gonna be a long way to happy*

I just want to sleep. sleep you away. Maybe then you will fade. Maybe it will all fade. Will it ever fade?

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just in case of said proof is needed : tears..

I would hate to be thought to be a liar.

I hate how I let people under my skin. I hate how loving someone in the end makes me a mess.. and I really fuckin hate loving you..Can my heart stop now?