ive seen it all,ive seen it all before

I hate when people label me as this or that. I can not get to angry,you see,I am a hypocrite and guilty of the very thing that annoys me that they do.

I hate when my mind is jumbled and nothing makes sense,I hate when my insomina takes over to leaps and bounds that I am so fucking tired all the time that I haven o idea if I slept more then an hour and a half,I have dreams of waking up and walking around my house,and sometimes I am informed that isnt a dream,that I really did that.

I hate the screaming I hear randomly throughout the day that no one else hears. or the other random mindless noise that my crazy mind makes up.

Sometimes I wish I can just sleep for days,no responsibilty,no nothing. No one to answer to,no phone messages to respond to,nothing.

Nothing but silence,from the world and myself.

I really wish I could retreat.Far away into myself.

I am going to turn my phone off tomorrow on my day off.

Nothing. Nada.Ziltch. I might sew. I might crochet. I might lay in bed all day and listen to music.

But nothing stressful and nothing involving anyone that isnt me.

Just one day,thats it.

If i dont do it I might have a real problem soon.