Its a simple thing..But I wont make it so

So, sometimes the hardest things to say are the hardest for a reason.
My cat died. My sweet puppy cat sparkle died last friday.
I havent felt like doing much since then really. I miss him so much.

My parents have bought the house we are moving to in May. So thatll be happening soon.

I have reestablished conversation with mister jack.
I missed him. I won’t say how much. But It wasn’t me that needed to reestablish the friendship. I didn’t cut it off.

Its hard to love someone sometimes.
Especially when the ugly angry me would rather just stab them and tell them to shut the fuck up.
(not that I would,I couldn’t hurt him on purpose..and I loathe the idea of anyone else touching him in a harmful way and if they did I must stab them.)

I am a walking contradiction. Its a simple thing to see. YOu could understand me a little bit better if I just let it go. But I wont make it so.

The only thing that hurt more then the loss of jack was the ugly ending of my friendship with Jamie.I miss her. But I know their is no way my paranoid mind could ever trust her again.

And that is important to me.

I feel like Im on the verge of crying alot lately. NOt sure why. Just built up sadness I cant put a grasp on.

Work is good though. My boss still likes me and Angelia the bitch face got fired.(The girl I went to school with that was mean to me then and was mean to everyone else)

So that made me happy..Im sorry if that affends anyone but it did.
If you only knew her…
Well later,S.