I know

Way down deep in my soul I know. Simply beating and repeating..I know. Without the lights on, grasping blindly. I see. Missing parts of it and putting it together haphazardly I drink a fifth of my life and you say..

I never meant for it to be this way. Stupid Girl. If course you did. I was never more then A thing to you. Stupid Fool..How dare you? Fuck you, I never meant for you to see me. How Dare you?

NOw fly off go on..Don’t stand around now.

* you are not welcome any more*

I Do not want you.

I do not NEED you. Fuck you.

I know fuck me. I made you lose your senses. I played cat and mouse with your heart. Yes fuck me for being honest.Fuck me for telling lies. Fuck me for wanting you. Fuck me for wanting the truth. You were never going to give it to me.

I was just another doll to you. dress me up, take my clothes off. Fold them in neat little rows. Put me in comprimising positions.

I DO not need you I said.Why are you still here? Are you really waiting around until I get bored with him?

What if I never get bored?  I know, I know.

Dancing on my heart looks so good on you. Black and blue broken pieces. YOu do it so well.

sweet voodoo make me love you..with a shake of your sugar stick..sweet honey..full of venom make me scream so loud..make me beg on my knees. Make me cry. Sweet sugar. my sweet amaranthe.

AND If I never cry..Just keep doing what you are doing..Only you can do it.

Only you. And I know.

Siarai