I hate my brain.

SO I am having a broken brain day.

If I listen to the voices..I might just go nuts.

So here is the thing. I asked for your fantasies. To write erotica. Now..I can’t write in third person. IF it isnt something I can picture myself doing..I can not write it.

By the way mister M. I think your fantasy is doable. I shall right it. Of course once the screaming in my head subsides.

So here is my deal:

I love D. I mean really love D. Love sort of scares me. I have only loved three other people.And not very sucessfully I might add.

The first one was Tj. And we all know how that ended. He practically almost killed all that I had left to offer.

Then there was Glen. And I don’t really want to talk about it. The ending hurt. I can pretend I am fine. But I won’t ever just be ok with the way it turned out.

Then after Glen It was boomer. But I believe. That I was just something fun to do for him. That kills me to admit but ya know. I dont count boomer anymore. Primarly because unlike Tj and glen I don’t think the feelings where returned.

But here is the thing. Now after those boys. I am afraid of my choices in men. I am afraid that I am going to get hurt. I am afraid. But you know what. I shall hold on to him. Because I believe he is worth it.

 

Despite what the voices say.

I am sorry baby. But my brain is falling apart. I still love ya..Puhlease dont take this personally. : )

Siarai

** keep thinkin’ bout that little sparkle in your eye
Is it a light from the angels, or your devil deep inside
What about the way you say you love me all the time
Are you liftin’ me up to heaven, just to drop me down the line

There’s a ring around my finger
But will you change your mind
And you tell me that I’m beautiful
But that could be a lie

Are you a heartbreaker
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I’m fallin’ for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won’t be leavin’ here alive
I won’t be leavin’ here alive, no

Temporary happiness is like waiting for the knife
Cause I’m always watchin’ for someone to show their darker side
So maybe I’ll sit back and just enjoy all this for now
Watch it all play out, see if you really stick around

But there’s always this one question
That keeps me up at night
Are you my greatest love
Or disappointment in my life

Are you a heartbreaker
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I’m fallin’ for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won’t be leavin’ here alive
I might as well lay down and die

I’m holding on with both hands and both feet, oh
Promise that you won’t pull the rug out from under me

Are you a heartbreaker
Maybe you want me for the ride
I pray to god you’re not a heartbreaker
This time around I won’t survive
Cause if I’m fallin’ for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won’t be leavin’ here alive
I might as well lay down and die, oh
I won’t be leavin’ here alive**

song lyrics of the day.

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