i am damaged..can you see?

DAMAGED (TLC)

Video Code provided by VideoCodeZone.Com

I have days like today where my memories get the best of me..were things trigger my memory and my heart aches and my insides feel like they are on fire.. When I feel like this it is so hard not to cry.

It is hard not to miss our friendship..It is hard to just let go. It is hard not to hurt. It is hard to just forgive.

It just gets the best of me..Today is one of those days. I tried to keep myself busy, play with bud, print out school work for him,do chores but it still crept up in me..and I started to cry and I dont think I can stop.

I found this video and..It explains how I feel the best.

no one sees..inside the girl that hurts.

No one but me.

And the strange thing is I actually have physical scars of my damage. cigerette burn on my shoulder, dent on my forehead. vitable..painful proof of what I survived..But I guess a part of me did not survive, my heart. Will it ever heal?

I guess I am writing this for those that wonder why I retreat, why i hide, wh I act strange, why I still flinch, why the act of being affectionate is sometimes lost on me. I guess the actions he did hurt me in a way I can prolly never heal.

Will I ever let some one touch me with out being scared inside? Will I ever let some one touch my face without flinching? When someone says I am beautiful will I ever believe?

Tiamo

Siarai