Glutton For punishment

BROKEN (FT. AMY LEE) (Seether)

 

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FFS..I am glutton for punishment. I really AM.Wanna know why?

Bet you all thought I gave boomer the heave ho.Hell I thought I did but you know what I realized something.

Something bizare. I Think I love him. I want to take care of him. I dont want him to hurt. I dont want to toss him aside.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

Boys dont do this to me..They dont ever fucking do this to me.. and here is the thing.

I dont feel right when I am away from him. I dont feel like I have all of me any more when i am alone.

I want him in my life some how.

I heard this song when i was at work on the radio and I sat down in the laundry room and cried.

Becuase this song reminds me exactly how I feel.

Is this love? What is this? This ache? This Urge to help him,To need him so completely all the time.

I liked it better when I was numb.

I cant lay down now. I cant.

He emailed me. About his mother,about her trying to kill herslef because she doesnt want to be sick anymore.When He told me about that I just wanted to hold him and kiss him.

I wanted to tell him it would all be alright even if it isnt.

Fuck. I hate myself now. I really do.

Bring on the pain sara. Bring on the tears.

Later.