fanatical idioticy

Fanatical Idiocity
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Sunday, July 02, 2006

I care to not talk to you. For no other reason besides I have nothing nice to say. What do you say if you have nothing nice to say?

Shall I wrench from some where inside of my the fanantical idiocity about how I loved you?

Should I preach the simple truth about how all my minutes were dedicated to thinking of you.

I wasted my time pure and simple. For your lies where spun in gold and mine in silver..Never mourn what would have never been.

I want to call you. I want to hold you. I want to tell you.

But I shall not. I will not. I can not.

I will not.

My life has moved on and yet my heart holds on. Why does it hold on to someone that wishes to bear false witness?

I do not know. I can not know. My soul has shrivelled and I hope it can grow to what it once was.

You think I have moved on…But I have forced myself through actions. For loving you is painful.

You will always be this untouchable being.This dark in my light. This light in my dark and secretly I might always love you. But I shall never say your name. I shall never tell the story. Empty lies and resounding glory like a cracked gong.

I was lost in your song.

Cocooned in the decietful fantasy that you could ever possibly love me I wrapped myself in it wishing..But I was wrong and you never did.

And quite frankly. I think I need to forget you.

For if I dont this might happen…and only a picture serves in justice the truth. Let me show you.