Everybody feels this way sometimes.

I DO (Lisa Loeb)

 

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I get the feeling sometimes that because I am quiet in real life some people think they can push me around.They think they can take advantage of me. They think they can play decietful little games to get me to do things to the way they want.

Fuck People. Fuck them all.

*I will be ignored,I will be denied,I can be erased, I can be brushed aside,I will get scared and I will get shoved down.But I already feel like I do when you push me around*

I am so tired. I am just fucking tired of it all sometimes. The urge to sleep all day is really there sometimes.

*You dont seem angrey..but I do*

And here is the thing alot of people in my life do this sort of crap to me. Why? Hell if I know. SOme of them it is like a reflex..They are just use to doing it. Others,Maybe I just help people too much. Maybe I should be mean. But I dont think i can be. No matter how much people take advantage of my niceness.

*everybody feels this way sometimes…and I do*

The worst part? When I tell someone they hurt my feelings,Take advantage of me, Overlook me,Use me for thier purposes time and time again..I am The Bad gUy. I am.

Everytime.

Or if it is my parents. They tell me I am just being crabby and to chill out.

Well. Fuck. I work a housekeeping job.I come home and my Dad wanted me to do his laundry today and make him dinner because my mom and bud would  be gone.

He can do his own damn laundry and make his own damn dinner.

I .Have.Only.One.DAY OFF.

and I want to paint.Talk to my friends.Write poetry and jump on my trampoline.

So that is what I am gonna do dammit.

*im starting to ignore you,I doubted you for so long.I am tired of overthinking I know you dont belong,I get so tired of your questions,No one pushes me around. You dont seem angry but I do.*

and the fun thing about it all? after he said that to me and I said no.He told me to chill out and not be so bitchy.

..Whatever.

Anyway. To elaberate on the shopping. I got stuff to paint with. Acrlyic paints. and a new easle.cz my other easle broke. snapped on the bottom and wouldnt stand up lol. ANd then I got tired of trying to paint with a broken easle so I laid it on the ground and my cat sat on it. Arcylic Paint is hard to get off cat fur. Damn cat.

I also got my self a satin comforter.

Mmm..SLeep..Mmm nice.: )

So anyway I dont work today. ANyone wanna talk to me?

Aphrodite1752,Yahoo.

sara_damned,Aim

Aphrodite1752,msn

Dudes..Talk to me..bored.*dying*

Adios, Siarai